Travis, I've been there many times, especially when my self-destruct mode kicks in.  In that passage, I note that God agrees with Elijah that the journey is too much for him.  God's solution?  Rest and nourishment for both the body and the soul.  God provided for his needs and reminded him that his life wasn't over and wasn't pointless.  Best of all, God showed up so Elijah wouldn't think he was all alone in the mess.

Thank you for your blunt honesty.  It helps that not only is God with us no matter what, but there are other people willing to share who have struggled with death, too.