It hit me Sunday that one of the reasons I doubted "everything" about God as I grew up (I'm developing a list) is Christmas and how we celebrate it. 

The whole thing has been hijacked by a secular idea and even if it weren't secular (because I don't have problem with secular what I have a problem with is the way we pull it into church!  And into our lives as believers. 

 Then I read this article by Ann VosKamp and I realized why.  You must read this.  http://www.aholyexperience.com/2011/12/when-christmas-gets-radical-whose-birthday-is-it-really/ 

I am not brave enough to change, at least not completely, not this year.  But this is what it should be about.  Beyond that, I'm with you and really depressed.   Thank you for being honest.