Beautiful, honest and vulnerable. 

I think of forgiveness as a place, and I must choose to go there. I must leave the conflict and go to that place. I must put down my weapon and climb that hill. I've done that many times more than necessary, simply because I keep returning to the conflict. I've learned that it takes more than one trip up that hill to be ready for redemption. I think of redemption as a time rather than a place. I go to forgiveness and wait there for redemption.

I'm puzzled over your closing question though, is there a word missing?