If connecting with God was conditional on me having complete faith, a willingness to do God's will, renouncement of all my sins......I would still be lost without God.  I might very well be permantently lost without God.

God knew I was going to be like this when He/She made me, yet didn't consider me a mistake.  God knows my struggles to "get the deal" like the people I consider "saints".  And yet God came looking for me -- the one sheep who didn't make it home, the one who would never have made it home unless a shepherd who cared enough about me came looking.  If I was God, I would have been content with the 99.  What a success percentage!  And yet God took the trouble to find the problem child, hang with me until I was ready to listen.  I will be eternally grateful.