Jerry, I think you aptly demonstrate the nature of living within the tension. We don't have a choice in one thing. We are still human, our nature is still flawed. while many of us choose to live according to the spirit, there is still a battle with the flesh. And this is how it is to remain until Christ's return. acting out of fearful obedience, or joyful submission is a war within the self that we will continue to wage until we are made perfect. that is until the effects of the curse are not just paid for in christ, but also obliterated when God makes all things new. Until then, we submit, we obey, we behave, decide, fail and succeed all under the grace of an ever loving and glorious God.