I'm not sure the giving up going to grad school in and of itself was the catalyst (I'm considering going back to grad school when both my kids are in school, but not in the same field. So, at this point, I don't mind missing that particular run of grad school). I think it might have been that PLUS thinking that being involved with the ministry was God's will. Since I tend to do things all the way or not at all... well, we see how that went down. 

You do make a good point that people can pervert the good things that should come with ministry. That's the fun of trying to live in a fallen world, isn't it? We may be doing the will of God, but others who are supposed to help us along the way may not be. Or vice versa. 

I also agree that one of our main ways of viewing God is through the lens of our parents. I think this applies not only to "natural parents", but also to "spiritual parents", or those that have helped us grow in our faith (sometimes the two are the same, sometimes not). I definitely have some incorrect views of God that I am in the process of "unlearning"....  but being able to discuss and "talk it out" with a community of friends who won't drop you as a friend or question your salvation as you work through issues is definitely helpful.

Thanks again for your thoughts and feedback! I appreciate it!