Travis ~ I am very touched at your feelings because I once shared them; and still do.  I have a four year old boy who is adopted and he is the absolute joy of my life.  The journey toward his adoption was long, hard, stressful and expensive but I can tell you that when he smiles and giggles and calls me daddy, it was all worth it.      I wish the best for you in this journey you've undertaken and I applaud you for it!