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So as you watch this clip who to you associate your self with? Is it Aragorn and his strength, Legolas and his skill, Gandalf with his power, Frodo with a mission or Gimli with his ferocity? Maybe I feel a little less noble and strong maybe I can really relate to Boromir and his attempts to be noble, but his lust for power gets to him, or I feel like Sam the good friend of someone with a mission and I want to make sure they feel supported.  I have and do feel many times like Merry and &amp; Pippin lost in self-gratification not knowing what to do.

This scene had a profound unexpected effect on me. I was shocked to see how my heart reacted to the characters, I lost focus on the hero's, their companions, I was caught off guard by the profound amount of emotion and empanthy I felt for the "Cave Troll."

In the scene you can see that this "Troll" has a chain around his neck. This brings up some questions.
Is he someones pet?
What was he like as a little cave troll?
What did they do to him to shape him into this angry, violent monster?

What if one of our "heroes" knew the troll language, or had some troll food. Could this enemy have been tamed, befriended or at least set free?

The real question for me is who or what is my enemy? I was told my entire life about a Devil who was out to destroy my life. I was told that he uses music, movies, seductive women, drugs and temptations of all kinds to seduce me into darkness. I needed to defend the faith, to battle the devil and his kingdom of darkness through prayer, scripture declarations and even fasting.

Jesus seemed at ease around these supposed enemies. Even during  his great temptation in the dessert the enemy could find "no place in him." He did not defend himself or argue doctrines or beliefs with this enemy. Jesus' lack of defense revealed a supreme security.

Personally I have spent so much time in my life polarizing people, groups, beliefs into some sort of enemy. That way I know who I can criticize, judge, inflict punishment on. At the same time I have hidden and defended my pain, projected my judgement's and fear on all sorts of people. Always imagining that I am Aragorn fighting for some lost freedom.

Matthew 11:12
From the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and violent men take it by force.

Reality sets in and I realize, "I'm the Troll." I am the real enemy. My fear and pain have been my shelter, I have allowed myself to be used and abused to hopefully find somewhere to belong. I have a big chain around my neck, I'm tired, hungry and dying.

Nothing Real can be threatened.
Nothing unreal exists.
Herein lies the Peace of God.
- A Course in Miracles