Chloe, this was fab. I militate against the pedestalling of preachers and speakers (and even, these days, worship leaders). Yet the whispered temptation is there for us all. I'm still in training, but am minister of a church of less than 20. I really love them and know it is right for me to be here. But in the work I used to do, I was regularly published, including two co-authored short books. It's easy to listen to the whisper that my material is as good as that of 'well known' speakers, to dream of 'glory' when it is all a gift. It doesn't help if others push you (college want me to publish something) even if it was good work. Good for you, girl. Stick to your guns. But if God does grow your ministry beyond your current small church, remember that too is His gift. Mighty oaks really do grow from tiny acorns. Be blessed and be a blessing.