Kim,
Thank you for this post. It moved me deeply and speaks so clearly and powerfully.  I have a deep love for adoption and hope it will be part of forming my family when that time comes. Your story is such a reminder to me of how that love of caring for children goes far beyond the ones we get to snuggle and bond with. It also holds up accountability about one's own motivations and ability to engage in the reality of painful situations. I appreciate you naming the loss and the injustice alongside the precious gifts of adoption.
Blessings on your work in the world,
Anna