Sorry. As I was saying, '...the only way to realize...' the depths of soul and spirit.  It is like a Zen Koan: made to overwhelm the ordinary workings, beliefs, and values of the "false self" (ego). 
Look at the thousands of sects in Christianity; they, too, tried to study these things with the safety net of their Tradition and Hermenautics, Reason seemingly rightfully in charge. 
The Bible is a children's book, the vision we need to have to get the plot, the message, to see with the necessary heart of discovery, one must have the vision of a Little Child.