I certainly resonate with this!  Can I just take a moment to say that you are a gifted writer?  Your words flowed, one to the next in a way that made me want to read more.  And that's saying something because there's so much noise out there and too much to read everywhere.   Keep it up, is all I'm saying.  Write.  You have a gift. 

And about the human condition, insecure and afraid, unwilling to risk, prone to self-medicating -- been there, done that.:  amen! 

Thanks for this post.